Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Never say never

I didn’t. I never said that I shall stop blogging, and it was probably a good thing too. I have been out of the blog scene for a while now. Did I miss it? Honestly? Not really. Real life has been quite taxing and with what we have just ventured into it keeps my mind quite occupied.

As I read my previous entries I realized that much have changed for me. So much so, that I contemplated deleting a few things, or even moving to a new url. But I realized that no matter what I do, I can’t hide from myself. So I shall not. You reading this shall remain witness to the evolution of a being called Zed Ezekiel.

I lost a very close family member abruptly a few months back, exactly 101 day ago actually. He was 36 years old, and was recently promoted to a very senior post in a foreign country. He visited the country, and passed away on the way back. Just like that, no real reasons – he neither smokes nor drinks. He is not overweight, nor does he have any medical history. Just like that. We didn’t do an autopsy. We didn’t want to. This was when things started to change for me. His death affected me in ways I could never explain. I will not.

We started a newco. Fun! Exciting! Stressful! Worrisome! Worth it? It depends. I don’t know yet, but I am sure that I am enjoying every moment. If you are measuring success only by monetary values, then only time will tell if the venture was worth it, but if success is the colorful experience we paint into our life – then I shall answer you now. It is worth every penny. The people I met, the lessons I learned, the realization that no matter how good you are, there are always ways to be better. Yes, worth it.

Well, that is all I have for now. See you next time. God willing. Insya’allah.