Thursday, October 19, 2006

Salam Aidilfitri

It is almost Aidilfitri and it has been almost a month of fasting. It is also almost time for over 200 families to miss one of their loved ones forever. At some point next week 200 people will die. They will die in a mangled metal wreck, and hopefully death will come quickly for the lucky few.

Please drive safely.

Gruesome? Well, if only they make advertisements with the same lines. Maybe, just maybe this time we will listen. This childish rebellious attitude is a signature idiosyncrasy of Malaysians. I don’t know why, but nothing seems to work when you put a Malaysian behind the wheels. They simply turn to Mr. Hyde, and let their ugly side rule the road. Sad, but we live this moment everyday when we start our engines.

Enough said.

Back to more recent updates? I have not blogged for a very long time. It feels very long. So much has transpired, yet it feels like I am standing still and the whole world is just a blur moving past me. I feel contented, at peace, and am finally in a place where I am in complete acceptance of my fate. It is interesting. All our life we speak of God, of our Prophet, of Heaven and Hell, of Angels, and of the inevitable Death. Yet, how often do we realize that this insignificant moment we have in life, as opposed to the eternity that we shall spend upon death – is nothing?

Perhaps you say you believe not in God. Perhaps you say we were monkeys before. Perhaps you say that beyond this life is just emptiness. Perhaps for you life is a journey from nothing to nothing, and when it is all over we all rot away – food for the worms that we once stepped upon? Perhaps.

Alas, I can’t believe it is as such.

I can’t believe that life is about nothing. I will not accept such a travesty. There is more, so much more to life then empty feelings of winning and losing. So much more then waking up day upon day to seek dollar upon dollar to make ready for a time when not a single dollar we have can save us from the inevitable death. Come what may, we will die and I believe that Allah has put me here, put all of us here for a purpose much more then just trivial pursuits of self glorification.

I feel restored.

So much more to learn and everyday I thank Allah for the opportunity to seek his forgiveness, to seek knowledge in this ever diminishing life to please my Lord and to seek a better hereafter.

There is more.

We have not the answers. We never will. Skim the surface, perhaps. Glimpse at the truth, maybe just a shade – but answers we shall never truly have. Just a notion, evolving as God allows us to learn, but to truly know the answers we must first believe that there is one God, and Allah promises that the answers we seek in this life shall be endowed upon us should we seek the straight path.

Am I religious because I preach my faith?

No. it is not for me to say, nor you whether I am religious or not. But I am thankful that these last few months have been what they are. I am thankful that now I am afraid of hell, and wishes for heaven. May this journey be one that lasts a lifetime, and may this man be one that seeks his Lord’s pleasure.

I wonder what you think. Some of you know me. Some of you know of me. I wonder what you think.

Wallahualam. This is me signing off, and perhaps if Allah pleases we shall meet again.

Assalamualaikum and Salam Aidilfitri to all Moslems.